Jesse Ross | jesseross.com

You’re beautiful.

And I can say that, and feel pretty confident that you will interpret that in the appropriate context, given who you are.

(Yes, I really do mean you… this isn’t about someone else. Seriously, it isn’t. I know my use of “you” can get blurry at times.)

(I’m serious. Stop questioning.)

In no particular order, and without much commentary or explanation, cause this is half for you and half for me:

Las Vegas.

I’ve considered renaming my blog “Message in a Bottle”, after the Police song.

If you’re reading this and you’ve lent an ear (and you know who you are), it is because of you that my days are just that much more bearable. (And it’s times like these that I appreciate English’s inability to differentiate between singular and plural second person.)

Ali’s second birthday is coming up… I’m so excited! She was scared of the fireworks, but I think next year will be different.

I miss knowing what my future will hold. Actually, I pretty much know what it will hold, I just need to tweak the system. It’s worked before… I’m sure I can tweak it again. Sometimes thoughts like that make me feel like I’m in a video game, and that I’m half aware of it. Sometimes I think it’s that “blessing” thing I’ve mentioned before.

It’s weird when a thought takes over your mind, making it difficult to think about much else. I guess that would be called obsession… is that okay if I just call it “focus”, or at worst “good distraction”.

If you remember an orange juice themed site, and remember the writing on those walls, I sometimes feel like I’m in much the same place. It’s hard to say though, because things are so different. I remember wanting to record my thoughts, so that I could remember that time… I’m still playing that game.

Oh, and that comment about that thing that you abhor that you didn’t want to talk about anymore… sorry about that. Don’t read too much into it.

I really like Jason Mraz. Really. He’s a damn fine musician. Thanks, Michael, for that one.

If you care enough to want more context, I will care enough to reply.